OH THE HORROR!

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 01:31:56 GMT

i mean FUCK.

screw boys,
screw life,
screw driving,
screw working,
screw growing up,
screw life,
most importantly,
screw you.

hahaha oh wait, already did that.

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 17:40:24 GMT

Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have...
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in...
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down...come down...I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same for me...
just say you would do the same...
just say you would do the same, for me
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 15:20:50 GMT

i guess i mean nothing to you,
10 months means nothing.

i feel like im going to die.
ive never felt this awful empty and heartbroken in my life.

i hate my life.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 17:14:05 GMT

i really dont know what to think anymore
on so many different levels.

i cant picture my life without you,
but how do i get you to see that.

i feel like youre never gonna try,
but i dont think ive given up on you yet.

Mon, 19 May 2008 18:03:41 GMT

this is my last day of actual school.

Tue, 13 May 2008 18:08:56 GMT

prom was so amazng,
Quinten asked me back out that night =]
hes so amazing i cant help it.

tiff looked booty-ful at prom! =]
mikey and his glasses and his ever growing gayness for my boyfriend, or at least his eyes.

the hotel was fucking awesome, it really did look like a huge artic cave.
hot tub was my favorite.

pictures from saturday to come.

get home sunday and our power went out sat night.
blew a fuse in my dads tv my heater my hair straightner , nothing works, annnnndd MY COMPUTER.
it wont turn on i dont know what to do....
im fucking livid.

oh and i have to stay here till 5 o fucking clock for ANOTHER tuesday school
FIVE AND A HALF DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Fri, 09 May 2008 02:46:47 GMT

And i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care about my guilty pleasure for you

and i don't even know
what kinda fool you're taking me for
so you've got some brand new clothes,
you never could afford before

oh brother spare us all
we don't care anymore
we just wanna get down on the floor
you sell yourself to make it
you can dish it, but can you really take it

you're never gonna get it with nothing
cause nothing's what you got in your head
so stop pretending

i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

and i don't even read
what the papers gotta say about me
oh, no i can't believe
they take it so serious, seriously

i'm so bored, oh please don't talk anymore
shut your mouth and get down on the floor

so cynical
poor baby i can dish it cause i know how to take it

you're never gonna win em all
so fuck em if they can't take a joke
i'm just playing

i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

and maybe someday i'll believe
(maybe someday i'll believe)
that we are all apart of some bigger plan
tonight i just don't give a damn
(so shut your mouth it's time to dance)
if the world is ending, i'm throwing the party

and i came here to make you dance tonight
i don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you
shut up cause we won't stop
and we're getting down till the sun's coming up

Wed, 07 May 2008 05:40:24 GMT

i have no idea what the fuck is going on
='[

Fri, 02 May 2008 17:07:14 GMT

i just got kicked out of class.
so im just chillin in the cybrary with a laptop.
maybe if someone would be such a jerk i wouldnt be raising hell!!!

ughhhhh im in a horrible moooodd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 01 May 2008 19:49:50 GMT

so i walked in my dads room to look in the big mirror on his dresser, so you know im just chillin and i see on the end of the dresser 3 VHS tapes....
i look to see what they are, and sure enough, porn.
but the best part is that they were titled
"Back in Black" and "Black that ass up! volume 6"

kinda weird but fucking hilarious.
who know my dad liked niggers?!

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 19:54:11 GMT

The Beautiful Mistake - As Blood Runs Black.

oh and keep um comin'

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 17:07:02 GMT

so everything is pretty much perfect.
=D
i love being able to say that.
i have 17 more days of school, and holy shit ill never have to say that again.
im not walking with glen este becuase i honestly hate all those mother fuckers, and its really not a big deal to me. im gonna graduate and im fucking pumped.

i cut my hair off and went blonder.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 22:19:28 GMT

oh yeah and i graduate in 36 days
=D

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 22:17:01 GMT

i take my cosmetology state board exams on may 29.
and im fucking nervous....

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 03:40:49 GMT

i fucking love my boyfriend.

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 12:51:34 GMT

on the plane in chicago there's snow everywhere and I'm on my way to san juan puerto rico. I've never flown outa the country before... exciting. there's 3 12 yr olds behind my cousin and I and I fucking hate the sound of loud annoying little girl giggles and screams of omg nooo wayyy! like omfg! hahaha

fucking shoot me, were delayed so were just sitting here like dear god can we just GO!!!!!!

well I say within 6 hours I will be in puerto rico on a cruise ship ready for relaxation!
=D

oh I miss my boyfriend =(

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 03:35:44 GMT

in case any of you are wondering, i dont use my myspace anymore.
lol

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 19:25:35 GMT

so the show was so much fun.
i loved being able to spend time with my friends and my bf at the same time.

on another note i present my senior project in 3 days and im no where near done.
im freaking out cuz honestly if i dont get a good grade im afraid im going to fail.
if i fail english i fail my senior year and i cant go to state boards which would mean the last 2 years of my life has been a waste.
honestly im scared shitless.
='[

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 19:11:13 GMT

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 19:00:44 GMT

im in english and let me tell you what, one not only do i fucking hate this teacher she is Satan and does his bidding here on earth.
but no matter what i do for my senior project its not right to her.
and i have to do so much over and im so behind and im presenting next thursday
i am terrified.
like i seriously might not graduate because of this.
so here i am being a bitch in class and crying because im afraid.

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 05:26:35 GMT

0. The way to win your heart?
appreciate me

1. What's your favorite artificial flavor?
blue rasberry

2. Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
twirl

3. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
yes

4. What are you like when you're drunk?
kinda dumb

5. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you shared a bed with?
Q dawg!

6. Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
yes

7. Who knows a big secret about you?
tiffany know everything about me

8. How long is your hair?
my real hair uh..... like 9 inches

9. Do you like Batman?
no superman

10. Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
Quinten

12. Who were you last listening to in the car?
all shall perish

13. Do you like anyone now?
i love my boyfriend

14. When was the last time you sang out loud?
ealrier today in the truck

15. What did you have for breakfast?
cheez-its

16. Is your birthday on a holiday?
my birthday is a holiday

17. What instant messaging service do you use?
aim.

18. Can you cook?
easy mac!

19. Did you have a nap today?
i fell asleep on the couch while Q aaron and jay jammed..

20. What was the reason you got in trouble last?
almost fighting someone today

21. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
jeans during the day, sweats at night

22. When is your birthday?
December 16th

23. Want some green beans?
ew fuck that

24. Do you swear alot?
fuck yea

25. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
charlotte russe

26. Do you have any regrets?
yea

27. Do you use an alarm clock?
on my phone

28. Where was your default My Space picture taken?
my room

29. Do you ever snort when you laugh?
i did once when i was tripping... i also farted. =D

30. what the first thing you notice of the opposite sex?
eyes and hair

32. Do you want something you can't have?
i have everything i want

34. What color is your favorite shoe?
gold

35. Who would you like to see right now?
Quinten

37. Are you a social or antisocial person?
isocial around my friends and im antisocial to people i dont know

38. Have the cops ever come to your house?
yes

39. Do you have a tan?
no

40. What's one thing you regret?
chair

41. Would you rather sleep with someone, or alone?
with quinten

42. What school do you go to?
Live Jokes

43. What radio station do you listen to?
WEBN!

44. Ever had braces?
nope

45. Are you afraid of the dark?
when im alone

46. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
serious question?

47. Do you miss someone today?
i miss him all the time

48. What's your favorite song?
currently; attack by system of a down

49. Who's your last missed call?
my grandma

50. What's your favorite commercial at the moment?
The Sobe Lifewater commercial with the nigger and the dancing lizards

51. Do you always wear your seat belt?
yes

52. Do you like bananas?
sometimes

53. What do you wear to bed?
Pink

54. Who was the last person to disappoint you?
my mother

55. Do you trust people?
unless they give me a reason not to.

56. What's your sign?
Sagittarius

57. What does your 5th text message in the inbox say?
"i left gas and lunch money on the table"

58. Is there someone you want to fight?
yea this ugly bitch at school for trying to come at me cuz i told her she wasnt tough shit.

59. Do you know what you want to do with your life?
in a way

dear god

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 04:58:27 GMT

Sun, 02 Mar 2008 19:35:15 GMT

i love tiffany and heaven.

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 13:27:49 GMT

so this past weekend was so fucking fun.
i got snowed in at Quins on thusday and thankfully i had a snow day.
at like 11, 3 of his friends made it up the driveway with a big four wheeler, and they all went snowboarding
haha they ate shit so many times.
was lazy the rest of the weekend and mostly stayed up i his room and watched movies.
learned some songs on guitar hahaha im not musically coordinated lol
yesterday we all went back in his fields to the paintball/airsof set up and played paintball, which ive never done before and ill tell you what it might hurt but its so fucking fun, the funniest was prbly when i was like a good couple hundred feet away from Quinten and he took off running and i started shooting him for like 10 seconds and he goes to jump over a fallen tree and trips and i see him go down and rool down a hill in the snow and i lost it.
and then i was ganged up on and havge 10 huge welts all over my body from the paintballs.
damn they're painful.
i cant wait to play this upcoming weekend.

hanging out with celeste today YAY!

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 21:03:39 GMT

God i really don't give a fuck.
LOL